4am is a song i wrote while being in costa rica at the airport waiting for my flight back home.
the entire time i was writing it, it gave me a sense of nostalgia. it made me feel happy and sad for the past i lived. it also made me feel both happy and sad about my future that had not yet arrived. it was 4 in the morning while i wrote it. when i was writing it i was already having withdrawals of the vacation i had just experienced and reminiscing on the memories. i was grateful for it yet bummed it was over. it reminded me to always remain present. i remember very vividly making it a point to be in the moment as i wrote down every letter and word and being appreciative for these lyrics that were pouring out of me with ease.
although it’s nice to have plans in life and accomplish goals, there’s also a certain beauty in allowing life to take you along and go with the flow without resisting it all the time. that is what i’m trying to capture here. it’s my way of expressing the tao without expressing it, if that makes sense. both me and this song are contradictions and paradoxes. it wasn’t until i was done writing that i realized it. 2 years later as i listen to it, it not only takes me back to the moment i wrote it but it also is a flashback of my entire life summed up into a four minute song. i’m saying a bunch of things without really saying anything. things that have come and gone. things that have faded away just like these words once you’re done reading them.
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Written, recorded, mixed, mastered and artwork by Quiet.
Produced by Yondo Beats